Ponderings

So I am about two and a half months from my surgeries. and I have been finding that I am starting to notice/realize the smaller things that I never have before.

1) I have a collar bone. You can't see it quite yet, but if I put my hand on my neck, I can feel it sticking up. Which is honestly super exciting for me. Why? Because that was one of my main goals - to actually be able to see my collar bone.

2) My butt hurts! I can't sit for more than 2 - 3 hours at a time and that is even pushing it. Why is my butt hurting? I think it is because my tail bone is no longer surrounded by lots and lots of padding.

3) I need to stop buying new clothes. After the surgery I knew I would be losing weight. But I didn't realize how fast the pounds would be coming off. I bought "later jeans" for 2 -3 months from now but I'm now wearing my "later jeans" - 2-3 months early. Same with my winter jacket from last year - I figured I could still wear it this winter, but when I went to try it on again, I can wrap myself in it - so that won't work.

4) I love working out. I want to start doing different activities for working out. I like how I can go to the gym and work out and actually feel the sweat - it makes me feel like I really am doing something to better myself.

5) I have my own cheering section. The people I have met on this journey are all cheering for me, along with my friends and family. I couldn't be more blessed with the group surrounding me and cherring me on.

6) I am not the only one going through this weight loss journey. I have met some great and extremely helpful people that are willing to share their experiences - good or bad - with me.

7) I need support. I need to ask questions. Again, I am not the only one going through this. I have some of the same questions that other people probably have had. I can also help other people that are just starting their weight loss journey. Forums and message boards, meeting with friends, support groups can only help me.

8) I need to trust my body and my doctors. Especially for the amount and types of food I can now eat.

9) My brain will eventually catch up to my body. I have moments where I'm like "that shouldn't fit, it will be WAY TOO tight" or "I can eat all that food no problem" but in reality, that shirt or pants fit me fine, if not a little too big now. Or I can't eat all that food...I'll just end up sick.

So there you have it, 9 little things that I have learnt since surgery.